My heart is feeling heavy at the moment. I don't think i can find the right words to describe the mixed feeling i'm having now.
It's scaring me. Scary how the closest seems to be the most distant at the moment. I can't bring myself to face any of them. I rather deal with this all alone because i know it will definitely be the easier way out. Not that i like keeping things to myself, trust me it's not as easy as sharing the problems. But such matters, you need to tell it to someone who you can trust and not pray that they will not judge.
I get extremely uncomfortable when people judge but i couldn't quite help it. I don't wish to hear the hard truth from an outsider so the best way is to zip up.
Why did things ever reach this stage? I don't know. One more year to go, i love school life but the burden that holds is draining me.
A break? Not so soon.